George Orwell's 1984 - Chapter 2
Chapter 2
As he put his hand to
the door-knob Winston saw that he had left the diary open on the table. DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER
was written all over it, in letters almost big enough to be legible across the
room. It was an inconceivably stupid thing to have done. But, he realized, even
in his panic he had not wanted to smudge the creamy paper by shutting the book
while the ink was wet.
He
drew in his breath and opened the door. Instantly a warm wave of relief flowed
through him. A colourless, crushed-looking woman, with wispy hair and a lined
face, was standing outside.
'Oh,
comrade,' she began in a dreary, whining sort of voice, 'I thought I heard you
come in. Do you think you could come across and have a look at our kitchen
sink? It's got blocked up and-'
It
was Mrs Parsons, the wife of a neighbour on the same floor. ('Mrs' was a word
somewhat discountenanced by the Party — you were supposed to call everyone
'comrade' — but with some women one used it instinctively.) She was a woman of
about thirty, but looking much older. One had the impression that there was
dust in the creases of her face. Winston followed her down the passage. These
amateur repair jobs were an almost daily irritation. Victory Mansions were old
flats, built in 1930 or thereabouts, and were falling to pieces. The plaster
flaked constantly from ceilings and walls, the pipes burst in every hard frost,
the roof leaked whenever there was snow, the heating system was usually running
at half steam when it was not closed down altogether from motives of economy.
Repairs, except what you could do for yourself, had to be sanctioned by remote
committees which were liable to hold up even the mending of a window-pane for
two years.
'Of
course it's only because Tom isn't home,' said Mrs Parsons vaguely.
The
Parsons' flat was bigger than Winston's, and dingy in a different way.
Everything had a battered, trampled-on look, as though the place had just been
visited by some large violent animal. Games impedimenta — hockey-sticks,
boxing-gloves. a burst football, a pair of sweaty shorts turned inside out —
lay all over the floor, and on the table there was a litter of dirty dishes and
dogeared exercise-books. On the walls were scarlet banners of the Youth League
and the Spies, and a full-sized poster of Big Brother. There was the usual
boiled-cabbage smell, common to the whole building, but it was shot through by
a sharper reek of sweat, which-one knew this at the first sniff, though it was
hard to say how was the sweat of some person not present at the moment. In
another room someone with a comb and a piece of toilet paper was trying to keep
tune with the military music which was still issuing from the telescreen.
'It's
the children,' said Mrs Parsons, casting a half-apprehensive glance at the
door. 'They haven't been out today. And of course-'
She
had a habit of breaking off her sentences in the middle. The kitchen sink was
full nearly to the brim with filthy greenish water which smelt worse than ever
of cabbage. Winston knelt down and examined the angle-joint of the pipe. He
hated using his hands, and he hated bending down, which was always liable to
start him coughing. Mrs Parsons looked on helplessly.
'Of
course if Tom was home he'd put it right in a moment,' she said. 'He loves
anything like that. He's ever so good with his hands, Tom is.'
Parsons
was Winston's fellow-employee at the Ministry of Truth. He was a fattish but
active man of paralysing stupidity, a mass of imbecile enthusiasms — one of
those completely unquestioning, devoted drudges on whom, more even than on the
Thought Police, the stability of the Party depended. At thirty- five he had
just been unwillingly evicted from the Youth League, and before graduating into
the Youth League he had managed to stay on in the Spies for a year beyond the
statutory age. At the Ministry he was employed in some subordinate post for
which intelligence was not required, but on the other hand he was a leading
figure on the Sports Committee and all the other committees engaged in
organizing community hikes, spontaneous demonstrations, savings campaigns, and
voluntary activities generally. He would inform you with quiet pride, between
whiffs of his pipe, that he had put in an appearance at the Community Centre
every evening for the past four years. An overpowering smell of sweat, a sort
of unconscious testimony to the strenuousness of his life, followed him about
wherever he went, and even remained behind him after he had gone.
'Have
you got a spanner?' said Winston, fiddling with the nut on the angle- joint.
'A
spanner,' said Mrs Parsons, immediately becoming invertebrate. 'I don't know,
I'm sure. Perhaps the children -'
There
was a trampling of boots and another blast on the comb as the children charged
into the living-room. Mrs Parsons brought the spanner. Winston let out the
water and disgustedly removed the clot of human hair that had blocked up the
pipe. He cleaned his fingers as best he could in the cold water from the tap
and went back into the other room.
'Up
with your hands!' yelled a savage voice.
A
handsome, tough-looking boy of nine had popped up from behind the table and was
menacing him with a toy automatic pistol, while his small sister, about two
years younger, made the same gesture with a fragment of wood. Both of them were
dressed in the blue shorts, grey shirts, and red neckerchiefs which were the
uniform of the Spies. Winston raised his hands above his head, but with an
uneasy feeling, so vicious was the boy's demeanour, that it was not altogether
a game.
'You're
a traitor!' yelled the boy. 'You're a thought-criminal! You're a Eurasian spy!
I'll shoot you, I'll vaporize you, I'll send you to the salt mines!'
Suddenly they were both
leaping round him, shouting 'Traitor!' and 'Thought- criminal!' the little girl
imitating her brother in every movement. It was somehow slightly frightening,
like the gambolling of tiger cubs which will soon grow up into man-eaters.
There was a sort of calculating ferocity in the boy's eye, a quite evident
desire to hit or kick Winston and a consciousness of being very nearly big
enough to do so. It was a good job it was not a real pistol he was holding,
Winston thought.
Mrs
Parsons' eyes flitted nervously from Winston to the children, and back again.
In the better light of the living-room he noticed with interest that there
actually was dust in the creases of her face.
'They
do get so noisy,' she said. 'They're disappointed because they couldn't go to
see the hanging, that's what it is. I'm too busy to take them. and Tom won't be
back from work in time.'
'Why
can't we go and see the hanging?' roared the boy in his huge voice.
'Want
to see the hanging! Want to see the hanging!' chanted the little girl, still
capering round.
Some
Eurasian prisoners, guilty of war crimes, were to be hanged in the Park that
evening, Winston remembered. This happened about once a month, and was a
popular spectacle. Children always clamoured to be taken to see it. He took his
leave of Mrs Parsons and made for the door. But he had not gone six steps down
the passage when something hit the back of his neck an agonizingly painful
blow. It was as though a red-hot wire had been jabbed into him. He spun round
just in time to see Mrs Parsons dragging her son back into the doorway while
the boy pocketed a catapult.
'Goldstein!'
bellowed the boy as the door closed on him. But what most struck Winston was
the look of helpless fright on the woman's greyish face.
Back
in the flat he stepped quickly past the telescreen and sat down at the table
again, still rubbing his neck. The music from the telescreen had stopped.
Instead, a clipped military voice was reading out, with a sort of brutal
relish, a description of the armaments of the new Floating Fortress which had
just been anchored between lceland and the Faroe lslands.
With
those children, he thought, that wretched woman must lead a life of terror.
Another year, two years, and they would be watching her night and day for
symptoms of unorthodoxy. Nearly all children nowadays were horrible. What was
worst of all was that by means of such organizations as the Spies they were
systematically turned into ungovernable little savages, and yet this produced in
them no tendency whatever to rebel against the discipline of the Party. On the
contrary, they adored the Party and everything connected with it. The songs,
the processions, the banners, the hiking, the drilling with dummy rifles, the
yelling of slogans, the worship of Big Brother — it was all a sort of glorious
game to them. All their ferocity was turned outwards, against the enemies of
the State, against foreigners, traitors, saboteurs, thought-criminals. It was
almost normal for people over thirty to be frightened of their own children.
And with good reason, for hardly a week passed in which The Times did not carry
a paragraph describing how some eavesdropping little sneak — 'child hero' was
the phrase generally used — had overheard some compromising remark and
denounced its parents to the Thought Police.
The
sting of the catapult bullet had worn off. He picked up his pen halfheartedly,
wondering whether he could find something more to write in the diary. Suddenly
he began thinking of O'Brien again.
Years
ago — how long was it? Seven years it must be — he had dreamed that he was
walking through a pitch-dark room. And someone sitting to one side of him had
said as he passed: 'We shall meet in the place where there is no darkness.' It
was said very quietly, almost casually — a statement, not a command. He had
walked on without pausing. What was curious was that at the time, in the dream,
the words had not made much impression on him. It was only later and by degrees
that they had seemed to take on significance. He could not now remember whether
it was before or after having the dream that he had seen O'Brien for the first
time, nor could he remember when he had first identified the voice as
O'Brien's. But at any rate the identification existed. It was O'Brien who had
spoken to him out of the dark.
Winston
had never been able to feel sure — even after this morning's flash of the eyes
it was still impossible to be sure whether O'Brien was a friend or an enemy.
Nor did it even seem to matter greatly. There was a link of understanding
between them, more important than affection or partisanship. 'We shall meet in
the place where there is no darkness,' he had said. Winston did not know what
it meant, only that in some way or another it would come true.
The
voice from the telescreen paused. A trumpet call, clear and beautiful, floated
into the stagnant air. The voice continued raspingly:
'Attention!
Your attention, please! A newsflash has this moment arrived from the Malabar
front. Our forces in South India have won a glorious victory. I am authorized
to say that the action we are now reporting may well bring the war within
measurable distance of its end. Here is the newsflash -'
Bad
news coming, thought Winston. And sure enough, following on a gory description
of the annihilation of a Eurasian army, with stupendous figures of killed and
prisoners, came the announcement that, as from next week, the chocolate ration
would be reduced from thirty grammes to twenty.
Winston
belched again. The gin was wearing off, leaving a deflated feeling. The
telescreen — perhaps to celebrate the victory, perhaps to drown the memory of
the lost chocolate — crashed into 'Oceania, 'tis for thee'. You were supposed
to stand to attention. However, in his present position he was invisible.
'Oceania,
'tis for thee' gave way to lighter music. Winston walked over to the window,
keeping his back to the telescreen. The day was still cold and clear. Somewhere
far away a rocket bomb exploded with a dull, reverberating roar. About twenty
or thirty of them a week were falling on London at present.
Down
in the street the wind flapped the torn poster to and fro, and the word INGSOC
fitfully appeared and vanished. Ingsoc. The sacred principles of Ingsoc.
Newspeak, doublethink, the mutability of the past. He felt as though he were
wandering in the forests of the sea bottom, lost in a monstrous world where he
himself was the monster. He was alone. The past was dead, the future was
unimaginable. What certainty had he that a single human creature now living was
on his side? And what way of knowing that the dominion of the Party would not
endure for ever? Like an answer, the three slogans on the white face of the
Ministry of Truth came back to him:
WAR IS PEACE
FREEDOM IS SLAVERY
IGNORANCE IS STRENGTH
He
took a twenty-five cent piece out of his pocket. There, too, in tiny clear
lettering, the same slogans were inscribed, and on the other face of the coin
the head of Big Brother. Even from the coin the eyes pursued you. On coins, on
stamps, on the covers of books, on banners, on posters, and on the wrappings of
a cigarette Packet — everywhere. Always the eyes watching you and the voice
enveloping you. Asleep or awake, working or eating, indoors or out of doors, in
the bath or in bed — no escape. Nothing was your own except the few cubic
centimetres inside your skull.
The
sun had shifted round, and the myriad windows of the Ministry of Truth, with
the light no longer shining on them, looked grim as the loopholes of a
fortress. His heart quailed before the enormous pyramidal shape. It was too
strong, it could not be stormed. A thousand rocket bombs would not batter it
down. He wondered again for whom he was writing the diary. For the future, for
the past — for an age that might be imaginary. And in front of him there lay
not death but annihilation. The diary would be reduced to ashes and himself to
vapour. Only the Thought Police would read what he had written, before they
wiped it out of existence and out of memory. How could you make appeal to the
future when not a trace of you, not even an anonymous word scribbled on a piece
of paper, could physically survive?
The
telescreen struck fourteen. He must leave in ten minutes. He had to be back at
work by fourteen-thirty.
Curiously,
the chiming of the hour seemed to have put new heart into him. He was a lonely
ghost uttering a truth that nobody would ever hear. But so long as he uttered
it, in some obscure way the continuity was not broken. It was not by making
yourself heard but by staying sane that you carried on the human heritage. He
went back to the table, dipped his pen, and wrote:
To the future or to the past, to a time when thought is free,
when men are different from one another and do not live alone — to a time when
truth exists and what is done cannot be undone:
From the age of uniformity, from the age of solitude, from the
age of Big Brother, from the age of doublethink — greetings!
He
was already dead, he reflected. It seemed to him that it was only now, when he
had begun to be able to formulate his thoughts, that he had taken the decisive
step. The consequences of every act are included in the act itself. He wrote:
Thoughtcrime does not entail death: thoughtcrime IS death.
Now
he had recognized himself as a dead man it became important to stay alive as
long as possible. Two fingers of his right hand were inkstained. It was exactly
the kind of detail that might betray you. Some nosing zealot in the Ministry (a
woman, probably: someone like the little sandy-haired woman or the dark-haired
girl from the Fiction Department) might start wondering why he had been writing
during the lunch interval, why he had used an old-fashioned pen, what he had
been writing — and then drop a hint in the appropriate quarter. He went to the
bathroom and carefully scrubbed the ink away with the gritty dark-brown soap
which rasped your skin like sandpaper and was therefore well adapted for this
purpose.
He
put the diary away in the drawer. It was quite useless to think of hiding it,
but he could at least make sure whether or not its existence had been
discovered. A hair laid across the page-ends was too obvious. With the tip of
his finger he picked up an identifiable grain of whitish dust and deposited it
on the corner of the cover, where it was bound to be shaken off if the book was
moved.
[to be continued with Chapter 3]
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