126 I Hung Around A Lot In
Monongahela: The Underground History of American Education by John Taylor Gatto
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I Hung Around A Lot In Monongahela
The great destructive myth of the
twentieth century was the aggressive contention that a
child couldn't grow up correctly in
the unique circumstances of his own family. In order
to avoid having you finish this
essay with the feeling it might have been all right for my
that just wouldn't do, fix your
attention a minute on the less savory aspects of my people,
as they might be seen through social
service eyes. Both sets of grandparents and my
mother and father were seriously
alienated from one another, the men from the women
and vice versa.
On the Zimmer side, heavy drinking
and German/Irish tempers led to one violent conflict
after another, conflicts to which my
sister and I were fully exposed. We grew like weeds
as children, with full run of the
town, including its most dangerous places, had no
effective curfew, and tended to
excess in everything. Did I forget to mention the constant
profanity? By up-to-the-minute big
city standards my family skirted the boundary of
court-ordered family dissolution
more than once.
Since a substantial number of the
families I worked with productively as a schoolteacher
had rap sheets similar to my own by
social hygiene standards, I want to offer you my
Monongahela years as a case study of
how a less than ideal family by social work
standards can still teach courage,
love, duty, self-reliance; can awaken curiosity and
wonder; can be a laboratory for
independent thought, well-rooted identity, and
communitarian feelings; and can grow
in memory as a beloved companion even when it
is composed of ghosts.
The city of Monongahela itself is
offered as a case study of a different sort, showing the
power of common places to return
loyalty by animating the tiniest details of existence.
The town is a main character in my
personal story, a genius loci interacting with my
development as a schoolteacher. I
invested an extreme amount of effort in the physical
presence of my classrooms, I think,
because the physical presence of my town never left
me even after I was far removed from
it. I wanted that same sort of ally for my kids.
Gary Snyder once said, "Of all
memberships we identify ourselves by, the one most
forgotten that has greatest
potential for healing is place." The quiet rage I felt at bearing
the last name of a then socially
devalued minority, the multiple grievances I felt off and
on against my parents for being a
house divided, at my sister for making herself a
stranger to me, at my dad for
staying away so I grew up with only a distant
acquaintanceship between us, the
bewilderment I felt from having to sit nightly at dinner
with grandparents who hadn't spoken
to one another for fifteen years and for whom I was
required to act as go-between, the
compounding of this bewilderment when I discovered
my Italian grandfather had been
buried in an unmarked grave, perhaps for taking a
mistress, the utter divide
geographically and culturally between Mother's family and
Father's — the fantastic gulf
between the expressive idiom of the Germans who treated
rage and violence as if they were
normal, and Dad's people, the quintessence of decorous
rationality, the absolute inability
of Mother to face the full demands of her maturity, yet
her inspiring courage when her
principles were challenged — all these made for an
exciting, troubled, and even
dangerous childhood. Would I have been better off in foster
care, do you think? Are others? Are
you insane?
What allowed me to make sense of
things against the kaleidoscope of these personal
dynamics was that town and its river,
two constants I depended upon. They were enough.
I survived, even came to thrive
because of my membership in Monongahela, the
irreducible, unclassifiable,
asystematic village of my boyhood. So different from the neo-
villages of social work.
All the town's denizens played a
part: the iridescent river dragonflies, the burbling
streetcars, the prehistoric freight
trains, the grandeur of the paddle-wheel boats, the
unpackaged cookies and
uncut-in-advance-of-purchase cheese and meat, women in faded
cotton housedresses who carried
themselves with bearing and dignity in spite of
everything, men who swore constantly
and spit huge green and yellow globs of phlegm
on the sidewalks, steelworkers who
took every insult as mortal and mussed a little boy's
hair because he was "Zim's
nephew."
I hung around a lot in Monongahela
looking at things and people, trying them on for size.
Much is learned by being lazy. I
learned to fish that way, to defend myself, to take risks
by going down in the abandoned coalmine
across the river full of strange machinery and
black water — a primitive world with
nobody around to tell me to be careful. I learned to
take knocks without running away, to
watch hard men and women reveal themselves
through their choices. I cleaned
Pappy's printing office daily, after closing, for a silver St.
Gaudens walking-goddess-Liberty
fifty-cent piece, the most beautiful American coin ever
made. I sold Sun-Telegraphs and
Post-Gazettes on the corner of Second and Main for a
profit of a penny a paper. I had a
Kool-Aid stand on Main and Fourth on hot summer
days.
Shouldn't you ask why your boy or
girl needs to know anything about Iraq or about
computer language before they can
tell you the name of every tree, plant, and bird outside
your window? What will happen to
them with their high standardized test scores when
they discover they can't fry an egg,
sew a button, join things, build a house, sail a boat,
ride a horse, gut a fish, pound a
nail, or bring forth life and nurture it? Do you believe
having those things done for you is
the same? You fool, then. Why do you cooperate in
the game of compulsion schooling
when it makes children useless to themselves as
adults, hardly able to tie their own
shoes?
I learned to enjoy my own company in
Monongahela, to feel at ease with anyone, to put
my trust in personal qualities
rather than statistical gradations. Anything else? Well, I
learned to love there.
Just across the river bridge and
over the river hill was open farm country, and anyone
could walk there in thirty minutes.
Everyone was welcome, kids included. The farmers
never complained. Mother would walk
Joanie and me there in the early morning as mist
was rising from the river. When she
was seventy-two, I wrote to her trying to explain
what I'm trying to explain now, how
her town had given me underpinnings to erect a life
upon:
Dear Mom,
I think what finally straightened me
out was memory of those early morning walks you
used to take with me up River Hill,
with mist rising from the green river and trees, the
open pits of abandoned coalmines
producing their own kind of strange beauty in the soft
silence of the new day. Coming out
of the grit and rust of Monongahela, crossing the
clean architecture of the old bridge
with its dizzy view to the river below through the
wide-set slats underfoot, that was a
worthy introduction to the hills on the far shore.
Going up those hills with you we
startled many a rabbit to flight. I know you remember
that, too. I was amazed that wild
things lived so close to town. Then at the top we could
see Monongahela in the valley the
way birds must but when we turned away, everything
was barns and cornland. You gave me
our town. It was the best gift.
My best teachers in Monongahela were
Frank Pizzica, the high-rolling car dealer; old Mr.
Marcus, the druggist wiser than a
doctor; Binks McGregor, psychological haberdasher;
and Bill Pulaski, the fun-loving
mayor. All would understand my belief that we need to
be hiring different kinds of people
to teach us, people who've proven themselves in life
by bearing its pain like free
spirits. Nobody should be allowed to teach until they get to be
forty years old. No one should be
allowed anywhere near kids without having known
grief, challenge, success, failure,
and sadness.
We ought to be asking men and women
who've raised families to teach, older men and
women who know the way things are
and why. Millions of retired people would make
fine teachers. College degrees
aren't a good way to hire anybody to do anything. Getting
to teach should be a reward for
proving over a long stretch of time that you understand
and have command of your mind and
heart.
And you should have to live near the
school where you teach. I had some eccentric
teachers in Monongahela, but there
was not a single one didn't live close to me as a
neighbor. All existed as characters
with a history profiled in a hundred informal mental
libraries, like the library of her
neighbors my grandmother kept.
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