Fahrenheit 451
PAGE 14
Unlimited reading from over 1 million ebooks
."
Montag felt himself turn and walk to the wall-slot and drop the book in through the brass notch
to the waiting flames.
"Silly words, silly words, silly awful hurting words," said Mrs. Bowles. "Why do people want to
hurt people? Not enough hurt in the world, you've got to tease people with stuff like that ! "
"Clara, now, Clara," begged Mildred, pulling her arm. "Come on, let's be cheery, you turn the
"family' on, now. Go ahead. Let's laugh and be happy, now, stop crying, we'll have a party!"
"No," said Mrs. Bowles. "I'm trotting right straight home. You want to visit my house and
"family,' well and good. But I won't come in this fireman's crazy house again in my lifetime! "
"Go home." Montag fixed his eyes upon her, quietly. "Go home and think of your first husband
divorced and your second husband killed in a jet and your third husband blowing his brains out,
go home and think of the dozen abortions you've had, go home and think of that and your damn
Caesarian sections, too, and your children who hate your guts! Go home and think how it all
happened and what did you ever do to stop it? Go home, go home!" he yelled. "Before I knock
you down and kick you out of the door!"
Doors slammed and the house was empty. Montag stood alone in the winter weather, with the
parlour walls the colour of dirty snow.
In the bathroom, water ran. He heard Mildred shake the sleeping tablets into her hand.
"Fool, Montag, fool, fool, oh God you silly fool..."
"Shut up!" He pulled the green bullet from his ear and jammed it into his pocket.
It sizzled faintly. "... fool . . . fool ..."
He searched the house and found the books where Mildred had stacked them behind the
refrigerator. Some were missing and he knew that she had started on her own slow process of
dispersing the dynamite in her house, stick by stick. But he was not angry now, only exhausted
and bewildered with himself. He carried the books into the backyard and hid them in the bushes
near the alley fence. For tonight only, he thought, in case she decides to do any more burning.
He went back through the house. "Mildred?" He called at the door of the darkened bedroom.
There was no sound.
Outside, crossing the lawn, on his way to work, he tried not to see how completely dark and
deserted Clarisse McClellan's house was ....
On the way downtown he was so completely alone with his terrible error that he felt the
necessity for the strange warmness and goodness that came from a familiar and gentle voice
speaking in the night. Already, in a few short hours, it seemed that he had known Faber a
lifetime. Now he knew that he was two people, that he was above all Montag, who knew
nothing, who did not even know himself a fool, but only suspected it. And he knew that he was
also the old man who talked to him and talked to him as the train was sucked from one end of the
night city to the other on one long sickening gasp of motion. In the days to follow, and in the
nights when there was no moon and in the nights when there was a very bright moon shining on
the earth, the old man would go on with this talking and this talking, drop by drop, stone by
stone, flake by flake. His mind would well over at last and he would not be Montag any more,
this the old man told him, assured him, promised him. He would be Montag-plus-Faber, fire plus
water, and then, one day, after everything had mixed and simmered and worked away in silence,
there would be neither fire nor water, but wine. Out of two separate and opposite things, a third.
And one day he would look back upon the fool and know the fool. Even now he could feel the
start of the long journey, the leave-taking, the going away from the self he had been.
It was good listening to the beetle hum, the sleepy mosquito buzz and delicate filigree murmur of
the old man's voice at first scolding him and then consoling him in the late hour of night as he
emerged from the steaming subway toward the firehouse world.
"Pity, Montag, pity. Don't haggle and nag them; you were so recently one o f them yourself.
They are so confident that they will run on for ever. But they won't run on. They don't know that
this is all one huge big blazing meteor that makes a pretty fire in space, but that some day it'll
have to hit. They see only the blaze, the pretty fire, as you saw it.
"Montag, old men who stay at home, afraid, tending their peanut-brittle bones, have no right to
criticize. Yet you almost killed things at the start. Watch it! I'm with you, remember that. I
understand how it happened. I must admit that your blind raging invigorated me. God, how
young I felt! But now-I want you to feel old, I want a little of my cowardice to be distilled in you
tonight. The next few hours, when you see Captain Beatty, tiptoe round him, let me hear him for
you, let me feel the situation out. Survival is our ticket. Forget the poor, silly women ...."
"I made them unhappier than they have been in years, Ithink," said Montag. "It shocked me to
see Mrs. Phelps cry. Maybe they're right, maybe it's best not to face things, to run, have fun. I
don't know. I feel guilty--"
"No, you mustn't! If there were no war, if there was peace in the world, I'd say fine, have fun!
But, Montag, you mustn't go back to being just a fireman. All isn't well with the world."
Montag perspired.
"Montag, you listening?"
"My feet," said Montag. "I can't move them. I feel so damn silly. My feet won't move!"
"Listen. Easy now," said the old man gently. "I know, I know. You're afraid of making mistakes.
Don't be. Mistakes can be profited by. Man, when I was young I shoved my ignorance in
people's faces. They beat me with sticks. By the time I was forty my blunt instrument had been
honed to a fine cutting point for me. If you hide your ignorance, no one will hit you and you'll
never learn. Now, pick up your feet, into the firehouse with you! We're twins, we're not alone
any more, we're not separated out in different parlours, with no contact between. If you need help
when Beatty pries at you, I'll be sitting right here in your eardrum making notes!"
Montag felt his right foot, then his left foot, move.
"Old man," he said, "stay with me."
The Mechanical Hound was gone. Its kennel was empty and the firehouse stood all about in
plaster silence and the orange Salamander slept with its kerosene in its belly and the firethrowers
crossed upon its flanks and Montag came in through the silence and touched the brass pole and
slid up in the dark air, looking back at the deserted kennel, his heart beating, pausing, beating.
Faber was a grey moth asleep in his ear, for the moment.
Beatty stood near the drop-hole waiting, but with his back turned as if he were not waiting.
"Well," he said to the men playing cards, "here comes a very strange beast which in all tongues is
called a fool."
He put his hand to one side, palm up, for a gift. Montag put the book in it. Without even glancing
at the title, Beatty tossed the book into the trash-basket and lit a cigarette. ""Who are a little wise,
the best fools be.' Welcome back, Montag. I hope you'll be staying, with us, now that your fever
is done and your sickness over. Sit in for a hand of poker?"
They sat and the cards were dealt. In Beatty's sight, Montag felt the guilt of his hands. His
fingers were like ferrets that had done some evil and now never rested, always stirred and picked
and hid in pockets, moving from under Beatty's alcohol-flame stare. If Beatty so much as
breathed on them, Montag felt that his hands might wither, turn over on their sides, and never be
shocked to life again; they would be buried the rest of his life in his coat-sleeves, forgotten. For
these were the hands that had acted on their own, no part of him, here was where the conscience
first manifested itself to snatch books, dart off with job and Ruth and Willie Shakespeare, and
now, in the firehouse, these hands seemed gloved with blood.
Twice in half an hour, Montag had to rise from the game and go to the latrine to wash his hands.
When he came back he hid his hands under the table.
Beatty laughed. "Let's have your hands in sight, Montag.
Not that we don't trust you, understand, but--"
They all laughed.
"Well," said Beatty, "the crisis is past and all is well, the sheep returns to the fold. We're all
sheep who have strayed at times. Truth is truth, to the end of reckoning, we've cried. They are
never alone that are accompanied with noble thoughts, we've shouted to ourselves. "Sweet food
of sweetly uttered knowledge,' Sir Philip Sidney said. But on the other hand: "Words are like
leaves and where they most abound, Much fruit of sense beneath is rarely found.' Alexander
Pope. What do you think of that?"
"I don't know."
"Careful," whispered Faber, living in another world, far away.
"Or this? 'A little learning is a dangerous thing. Drink deep, or taste not the Pierian spring; There
shallow draughts intoxicate the brain, and drinking largely sobers us again.' Pope. Same Essay.
Where does that put you?"
Montag bit his lip.
"I'll tell you," said Beatty, smiling at his cards. "That made you for a little while a drunkard.
Read a few lines and off you go over the cliff. Bang, you're ready to blow up the world, chop off
heads, knock down women and children, destroy authority. I know, I've been through it all."
"I'm all right," said Montag, nervously.
"Stop blushing. I'm not needling, really I'm not. Do you know, I had a dream an hour ago. I lay
down for a cat-nap and in this dream you and I, Montag, got into a furious debate on books. You
towered with rage, yelled quotes at me. I calmly parried every thrust. Power, I said, And you,
quoting Dr. Johnson, said "Knowledge is more than equivalent to force!' And I said, "Well, Dr.
Johnson also said, dear boy, that "He is no wise man that will quit a certainty for an
uncertainty.'" Stick with the fireman, Montag. All else is dreary chaos!"
"Don't listen," whispered Faber. "He's trying to confuse. He's slippery. Watch out!"
Beatty chuckled. "And you said, quoting, "Truth will come to light, murder will not be hid long!'
And I cried in good humour, 'Oh God, he speaks only of his horse!' And "The Devil can cite
Scripture for his purpose.' And you yelled, 'This age thinks better of a gilded fool, than of a
threadbare saint in wisdom's school!' And I whispered gently, 'The dignity of truth is lost with
much protesting.' And you screamed, 'Carcasses bleed at the sight of the murderer!' And I said,
patting your hand, 'What, do I give you trench mouth?' And you shrieked, 'Knowledge is power!'
and A dwarf on a giant's shoulders of the furthest of the two!' and I summed my side up with
rare serenity in, 'The folly of mistaking a metaphor for a proof, a torrent of verbiage for a spring
of capital truths, and oneself as an oracle, is inborn in us, Mr. Valery once said.'"
Montag's head whirled sickeningly. He felt beaten unmercifully on brow, eyes, nose, lips, chin,
on shoulders, on upflailing arms. He wanted to yell, "No! shut up, you're confusing things, stop
it!" Beatty's graceful fingers thrust out to seize his wrist.
"God, what a pulse! I've got you going, have I, Montag. Jesus God, your pulse sounds like the
day after the war. Everything but sirens and bells! Shall I talk some more? I like your look of
panic. Swahili, Indian, English Lit., I speak them all. A kind of excellent dumb discourse,
Willie!"
"Montag, hold on! " The moth brushed Montag's ear. "He's muddying the waters!"
"Oh, you were scared silly," said Beatty, "for I was doing a terrible thing in using the very books
you clung to, to rebut you on every hand, on every point! What traitors books can be! You think
they're backing you up, and they turn on you.
No comments:
Post a Comment